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In the past 6 days, I wrote (or started to write) 3 blog posts for Scripting Happiness. None have made it onto the blog. Despite spending a good portion of my life writing, I’m still not very good at this blogging business.

It really frustrates me.

I wish I can just sit down and unload onto my Word document and hit publish but instead I struggle with each word. I fear not being good enough, judged, criticized, and un-liked.

I’ve been slowly and painfully articulating my thoughts and putting it in writing. I wrote posts about losing a case (and having the losing decision be published), losing friends, making friends, growing our practice, finding a home, family, and exercising regularly again. I write, delete, write again, delete again… and again…

I feel guilty for not sticking with the plan and not posting everyday like I promised myself. I hate that it’s such a struggle and so difficult.

Then I came across this little blurb from Ira Glass from This American Life. I’ve been listening Ira since 1997. I was in college. To say that I love this show would be an understatement. There are so many episodes that resonated with me over the years. He’s brilliant.

It’s hard to imagine that he was anything but brilliant – ever. So, for him to talk about struggling to be “good” – that comforts me. I wonder if he still struggles and when (if ever) it gets easier.

For now, I’ll do as he suggests. I’m going to “do a lot of work” and I’ll keep practicing.

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Paul Konasewich September 16, 2011 at 6:50 am

I’ve found this book to be really helpful for writing:

http://www.amazon.com/War-Art-Through-Creative-Battles/dp/0446691437

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Jeena Cho September 17, 2011 at 4:38 am

Thanks Paul. I read the first chapter from Amazon and it looks like it will be very helpful. I’m going to borrow it from the library. Awesomeness!

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Phoebe Wall Howard September 17, 2011 at 5:59 pm

“Bird by Bird,” by Anne Lamott is an inspiration for writers …

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